Reality.
These past couple of weeks it's been slowly hitting me that high school is going to come to an end and that my life is going to change dramatically within the next year. I'm not sure exactly what I want to do career wise which totally terrifies me and makes me feel unprepared for the upcoming year but on the other hand I'm excited for this new adventure. I'm not going far for college I'm going to LBCC and I wish I had tried harder as a freshman and sophomore. I see all these kids applying to major colleges out of state and out of this city and it makes me green with envy. But instead of being bitter I've decided to just embrace my fate and just apply myself fully in college.
I got excited to comment on this post because I'm in the same boat. It hit me hard when I realized I'm leaving the security of high school, and having dropped out of honors class, felt worried about my future. I wish I tried harder in the past three years. Although, even though I'm attending a JC, i have an abundance of opportunities. Not only will I be saving money, I will have time to reach any goals, even the ones I haven't dreamt of yet. The future may not look promising right now, but some of the most important people in the world didn't even finish high school. So techniqually, we are already a step ahead of them. Imagine all the changes we can make just by doing what we want, and more importantly, when we feel we are ready.
ReplyDeleteI like your positive outlook because thinking about college is so stressful. I know that I'm going to a four year college but I don't know which one yet. Its so stressful and its killing me. Even though, you're going to community college you can always transfer to another college out of state or wherever you wan to go. You have two years to figure out what path you want to take as long as you have some ideas now you're good.
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ReplyDeleteThis is me. I regret not pushing myself to work harder my freshmen and sophomore year because I feel like I would've had more opportunities now. But the past is the past you know? There’s nothing that can really be done to change it. I don’t really know what I want to do career wise either and that freaks me out. Whenever I would tell people that I was undecided I would get the "oh sweetie" pity look. So one weekend I researched and picked a major that I was interested in and went for it. I’m looking forward to maybe changing it later on though.
I feel the same way, and sometimes I get angry with myself because counselors and parents act as if high school determines our ultimate fate in life, but I found that some of us (students) are late bloomers and tend to show our intellectualism in college and later on past high school. In Mr. Bacay's class he mentioned the very reality of what's next for us: college and then working for the rest of our lives until retirement, so whenever I feel as if I haven't tried enough I know enough that we will all end up working, unless someone wins the Lotto. College is college. It will lead you on a path to your future, and it is the same path compared to those who are applying for Stanford or Harvard.
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